L- Learn from your mistakes. They are inevitable and will happen so take there lessons and apply it.
I- Ignore what people say or think about you. Yes people will judge you, but as long as YOU are happy with yourself, YOU feel beautiful, YOU can smile everyday, say, "I Love myself" everyday and mean it, Nothing else matters.
F- Feel for others. YOU should be your number one priority, but never lose sight of the people around you and what they do for you. It's because of them that you are who you are.
E- Eat. Whatever. You. Want. Stay healthy and exercise regularly, but never feel guilty about a craving.
LIFE- if only it were that simple.
It's so weird not being at school. I recently got a twitter (@DJKostka1) and this morning I tweeted, "This day and time last year, I was productive and sweating in a Nai class. Now I'm laying in bed thinking about what to do with my life..." it's weird not being in school. Not having a set schedule or somewhere that I HAVE to be. It also sucks even more that I don't really have a job anymore. I did... and apparently what my boss was looking for was someone to fill a management position. Apparently she saw that in me during my interview, but when working there 3 separate times, she decided that I wasn't quite right for the position. (wa waaa) SO, now I'm hunting for a new job. However, that's not as simple as I was hoping it would be.
I've been rather sad lately. I'm going through that transition of no longer being a college student. Of needing to become an adult. It's kind of a depression. Well, I've successfully completed the first step right? Admitting I have a problem? OK.... well now what?
I've had a one year plan since Graduation.
1. Get a Job
2. Save as much Money as I can.
3. Move out of my Parents house/ get my own apartment.
4. Dance/ continue doing what I love.
Only down side is that I've recently realized something else needs to be factored in, College bills. That changes the plans a bit.
I don't know what I really want anymore. I thought for the longest time that I knew EXACTLY what I wanted... and recently, that all changed. I want to dance. I want my own place. I want to perform. I want to have a set schedule. I want to be on my own. But I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of making plans that don't follow through. I'm tired of wanting what I can't have. I'm really just tired.
Inspiration is a hard thing to come by and I could seriously use a swift kick, push, shove, step in the right direction. I understand that life is hard. But can't something just be easy for once? Just one time? That's all I ask...
I'll let you know if that happens ever...
